Hello Class of 2013. As I look out on your young and beautiful
faces I see hope, I see promise, and I see the future. I also see panic, fright
and I see utter despair and failure.
For today you all enter into the last chapter of your
lives. Because tomorrow you will no longer be high school students, you are ALL
going to be adults. You are entering into the world as fresh meat for the world
to consume. And I say this with genuine admiration and prayer for you all. Because
I have been in your very seat and now I have been into the grinder and I know
what you all face and I admire the naiveté with which you all have, as you plunge
into this great journey. And I pray for each and every one of your souls, because
soon you will be faced with decisions that will compromise your innocence,
morals and ethics. You will eat or be eaten. You will destroy and rebuild. You
will die and be reborn.
And unfortunately no matter your choice you will shed
some of your youth, you will make connections and loose connections. You are
going to break your hymen of childhood on the jagged, rough edges of adulthood.
Every once in a while I think back...I think about how it
seemed so difficult at the time. But then again, youth built on drama, youth is
fueled by tragic moments that when strung together will be the sum of your
lives.
I am now 48 plus some days and over 200 pounds and every
morning I get up and puke and then on my "kill or be killed" commute
to a pathetic foot race with corporate whore mongers, pirates and thieves, I think
back to my youth. And I think ‘man that was difficult’, trying to figure out if
my mother was going to be with a drunkard or a boxer or fucking worse yet, a
drunk angry boxer. And I think this fucking rat race I am in is SOOOOO much
easier. I know the rules I know the boundaries and I know that as long as I do
not talk too much no one knows what a fucking mess I am.
I fucking hated those times that you are all in right now
and am so glad I am beyond that, and then fucktards with some weird ass hair up
their ass seems that they want to re-capture those times by trying to contact
me. Why?
We were stupid, we knew nothing of how the world worked
or existed beyond our poor pathetic sociopathic world. We talked about how we
were cool and everyone was not because they were not individuals. We were the
future and we were going to make a difference. We looked down on those that
looked down on us, and for what? The same reasons they looked down on us.
And don't start me on the whole kum-bi-ya, group hippy
love hug shit, that we all accepted those not like us and embraced those that
were different like us. Yeah fucking right! We had cliques and we defended
those cliques with fury, hatred and broken bottles. We were just as guilty of
snobbery as our educators and protectors. We did, on a smaller scale, the same
evil shit that we said we were rallying against. We learned from masters of
evil and deception. We copied them but disguised it in youth exuberance. How fucking
ignorant were we?
I look back at those times with venom, hatred,
uneasiness, and a mounting debt of therapy bills and a hand full of prescribed
medications. Yeah I remember everyone single one of them and Jesus H Christ why
do they all want to make me touch those things again? Why do they all want to
touch those things again?
We were all outcasts but so was everyone else our age and
so IS every one of you! We hid in their group and peer structure just as you do.
We were rude and cold to everyone that was new that showed up. We were
dickheads and twats to the world. We walked around spouting the world owed us
and [raising voice] you want to know what? [full on top of lungs yell] the
world don’t owe us shit!
And my karma is destroyed by my decisions just as every
single one of my generation.
You are not special, you did not earn a single trophy
that is in your room right now. You have been coddled, swaddled, and protected
from what you are all about to endure.
Life!
Yep, that’s fucking right life is going to eat your
mutherfucking lunch if you think you are going to make this world a better
place. The world does not want to a better place. The world likes it just the
way it is. Cheaters will always win. Liars will always prosper and the thieves
will pocket everything you have.
Congratulations class of 2013 you are now in the race and
you are not even aware the that there is a pack of wolves already closing in.
[Middle finger] Good fucking luck! And don’t get in my
way or I will bite your neck and claw your back to get what is mine.
You Are All Doomed!
